Sunday, December 28, 2008

Happy New Year?

Bronchitis has hit the Johnson side of the family. I mean really hit us. My dad, Cody, Amy, Heather, Jody, Brielle, Kutter, Me, and Travis too. (And I think Sienna may be starting it as well.) It is no fun for any of us, but especially not for T.

Today he coughed so hard that he broke his cancerous rib. I'm sure it was so weak due to the tumor that it just snapped. And he is in a whole lot of pain.

We spent the afternoon at the ER. The Dr. there said usually with a broken rib you just wait and eventually it will heal itself, but they aren't sure if it will heal at all due to the crappy cancer. We will talk to his Dr. tomorrow to see what he thinks. Till then he is doped up on percocet and I am doped up on lortab.......has anyone seen our kids? (I'm kidding).

At least we were all healthy through Christmas! Wish us luck and wish Travis a pain free night!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

No News. Happily.

Maybe this blog wasn't such a good idea, I don't really have anything new to add to it! But hey, no news is good news, right?

We are really enjoying the Holiday Season without cancer looming over us. Last year it was always there, but this year, we are forgetting about it and just enjoying every second!

Travis doesn't have a treatment for the next 2 weeks, and we are all very happy about it! He hopefully will be canker free, and will be able to feel %100 throughout!

I hope you all have a great Christmas! We sure appreciate all of you who read this, and those of you who are always praying for us. We love you!

Monday, December 8, 2008


Just wanted to quickly let everyone know that the treatments continue to work. There wasn't any shrinkage, but at least everything stayed the same!

We are now ready to celebrate Christmas!!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Thank you.

Where do I begin? Bear with me, I have a point. I'll get there eventually.

Next Thursday marks 1 year since Trav's cancer has returned. For the last week it's all I've been able to think about. I've been trying to think of ways to celebrate one more year of life for Travis. And I think he should be awfully proud of himself. He drags himself into the Cancer center week after week, and his body is tired. I wish I could express how thankful I am to him for doing it with such an amazing spirit.

I love him.

Today travis has a treatment, and then afterward set up his scan for Monday. And I've been a bag of tears all day long. I'm terrified. Last year at this time, the news was not good. I really need it to be good!! I've been running on empty for the last few days, and have felt blue and nervous all at the same time. You'd think that we would be use to this, but I'm not.

I had a big church party tonight for my calling in the ward. It's taken a lot of work, and I've stayed up hours to late each night trying to get myself organized. I don't think I've ever felt so worn out, physically and emotionally. I got home around 9:00, put my jammies on, and sat around in my messy house not wanting to move. Feeling a bit empty inside.

And then a dear friend came over to drop off a very generous gift for us, and I wish there was some way to say thank you. Cancer makes every aspect of life hard. We wonder daily how long his treatments will last. We pray nightly that "daddy will get better". We hope. We cry a lot, still, even after a year. We get angry. We pay medical bills. Travis feels tired. I worry. And through all the bad stuff, we are always looking for the good stuff. And it seems that most of the time we can find it in bulk. Most of the time we are thankful for the little things we have. We realize how lucky we are that we have a beautiful home, and two overly happy little girls. But today was one of those days for me, when all I could see was the bad. This gift touched my heart more than I will ever be able to say. It made me remember how blessed we are, how loved we are, and how many people are there to support us. Once again, our home was full of Christmas spirit tonight, and my heart was softened. I still can't hold in the tears.

Thank you. From the bottom of our hearts, thank you! You will never know how much you have helped, and could not have picked a better day to remind me how loved we are. I don't feel that this is Thank you enough, but I hope you all know how much it meant to us. There should be more people like you in this world.

Thank you.