Saturday, July 16, 2011

Bleck. It's scan time again.

Yep, it's scan time again. I've made it almost 4 months without even looking at this blog. (Thanks for those of you who have commented since my last post, I just saw them and sure appreciate people for checking in on us!)

The scan is set for Thursday, and as usual the freaking out/grumpiness that accompany some of us (um, me), have already set in. We sure appreciate all the fasting, praying and well wishing you want to do for us. Really, we appreciate it more then you know.

Things have been fairly normal for us lately, but there are a few things I'm a bit worried about. For the past 3 weeks Trav's legs have been swelling. (He now understands the term 'cankles' and can sympathize with how I felt pregnant). And while it was kinda funny to make jokes about it for a while, it is worrisome. I'm not sure why it has been happening, but it seems like they are finally getting it under control. Let's pray that it doesn't end up being anything major.

And his chest pain has been really bad. Like, wake up in the middle of the night in pain bad. It seems like he goes through spurts where this happens, so I'm really hoping it's just normal...but we always worry.

If your wondering what the worst part of dealing with cancer for us is, I would say uncertainty. If Trav gets a bad chest cold, we worry that it might be something to do with cancer. If he has a funny pain in his back, we worry. If he pulls a muscle, we worry. We never know if it's cancer attacking, or just normal pains everyone gets. We are never certain that his medicine is working, because if we are honest with ourselves, we know that we've had an amazing run with this medication so far, and our luck could run out at any time. It would be so nice to plan ahead in our lives with certainty that things will go smoothly. I miss not worrying about every. single. thing.

That being said, we have been so blessed to have had so much go our way, and know that we are lucky in comparison to some. We are so thankful for all the time we have been given. But we are greedy! We want more! So yeah, go ahead and send us some good vibes.

I will update as soon as we hear. Trav has a treatment Thursday afternoon, so maybe the Doctor will be able to get results by the time he goes in. Wouldn't that be nice?

Love to all.


Melissa Hernandez said...

sending good luck vibes ur way....i will be thinking of your cute family this week hoping for really good news from the doctor!!

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The Hoths said...

Hayley you always say how you freak out and how grumpy you get when scan time comes but I want you to know how extrememly amazing I think you are. Travis and your girls are so so lucky to have you! Hang in there! You will all be in my thoughts and prayers. (((hugs)))

Trisha said...

Lots and lots of good vibes comin' your way! Love you guys!

Eileen said...

[sad face]

I just have such a hard time believing Travis is sick! He just puts on such a happy face. I sure admire that about him.

And then there's you. You are my HERO! And I love you. Really much.

Eileen said...

Oh. And you looked fabulous at church today.

Watkins said...

Praying for you and thinking of you. You should know that you are in my thoughts daily. Your strength with this trial is amazing to me. I'm so sorry Travis has been dealing with pain and swelling. He always says he is fine when I ask, but I know that is not always true. Our prayers will be doubled this week. By the way, I am so excited you will be my visiting teacher!!

Hiatts said...

lots of good vibes coming your way! We will be praying and thinking about you guys!

Haylee Munk Brown said...

I will keep in you guys in our prayers!! We are praying a lot these days since our fight isn't going so well right now, but I have a good feeling about yours!! Love sent your way!!!